You’re Either In or Out (of Well Being)

Good Afternoon All,

I’ve been down with flu for the past few days. Stubborn being that I am, it seems to take a giant whammy upside my head before I figure out that I either stay IN well being or I step out of it in consciousness. It is my choice.

My most recent “excuse” for my being “out” of well being has been the addition of a house on a parcel that boarders my property. We can use anything as our excuse, but the bottom line is that it only has it’s “effects” on us (you and me). Me in this case.

How many times have I told myself not to accept the “appearances” of things. How many times have I schooled myself to “look for something good or pleasing”. Consciousness expansion is definitely a process and so it seems, never complete; and certainly is only practiced in each moment.

When this development started I had fearful thoughts right from the get go. I feared the loss of my privacy; I worried there’s not enough water; I fussed about the traffic.  Blah, blah, blah…  Well I got more of the same. The good old Law of Attraction matched my fearful thoughts point for point. The more fearful or lackful I thought, the more it kept happening and got bigger in the bargain.

What’s important to understand in this is that my initial feelings were accurate. My fearful awful (negative) feelings were “out of sync” with Well Being and telling me exactly that. When I observed the project and “felt” the project, it, too, was “out of alignment with Quality.”

Jesus said in his Sermon on the Mount (Mathew5:25), “Agree with thine adversary quickly, while thou art in the way with him; lest at any time the adversary deliver thee to the judge, and the judge deliver thee to the officer, and thou be cast into prison.”
Well, I didn’t. I harbored it. I kept trying to put a happy face on it. I squelched it and pushed against.  What I didn’t do was name it, make peace with it, allow it.

I got sick. Today I’m on the mend after probably 72 hours of sleep and reflection and that painful part of coming to consciousness of how I am creating the whole of my own reality. Resist not. The useful part of becoming sick is that we surrender. It certainly doesn’t have to go that far. So today I realized how angry I was. I verbalized it. I cried. I released my resistance to my own Well Being and I’m on the mend.

How will I resolve this? Well, for one thing it ain’t over ’til it it’s over. There is always something good at play. In fact, how many times have I told myself, “Relax, watch, your good is at play It’s unfolding!” So knowing this is true, I can feel that taking over within me. Also, it’s time for me to draw some gentle boundaries with my new neighbor. Perhaps a basket of oranges with a conversation supporting her development, but clearing defining where she has trespassed.

What is certain is this: until I feel fully connected – back into Well Being – I am taking my very best advice and pausing, doing nothing, until I can feel “the peace that passes human understanding.”

Then and only then will I have the green light to proceed. What ever has its foundation in Love will prosper. Whatever has it’s foundation in fear will fail. It’s a choice. It is my choice. My very own free will choice to be in Well Being or Not.

Thanks for reading!

Kath