Well, Well, Well: Going Through
By2009-09-21
Good Day Everyone!
Well, it’s cool and promising rain this September day here in the mountains of San Diego. This is almost unheard of, but I for one am thankful. The cool of fall is here just in time for the autumnal equinox. I think this is my favorite time of year. I like all the pre-winter chores: cleaning out the gutters, stacking and covering the fire wood, insulating the water lines, digging out my winter clothes and putting my flannel sheets back on the bed. The night sky is incredible; and cozy is back!
This year I’m dealing with my water well. To my way of discerning information about my life, this is a very significant activity. For help in interpreting such a monumental event, I often use the I Ching for guidance. The I Ching, often referred to as the The I Ching or Book of Changes
My water well seems to have mud in it. So much so that we are now having to line the well and insert a sand separator to filter out the sand/mud. The 48th hexagram in the I Ching speaks directly to the water well of a village. Of course the messages of the I Ching are about an individual’s consciousness. I might add here that this is one of the few times that the symbol is actually appearing in the physical, so it’s definitely a “sit-up and pay attention” time for me.
When one reads the I Ching, it’s a good idea to read the previous hexagram, and then read the one you’re focused on; and then the succeeding hexagram, as well to give you the flow, the movement you might say, of what is going on in your life. It speaks to perspective. In this case, the previous hexagram is #47 Exhaustion. (Oh, no duh.) The following hexagram is #49, Revolution.
And then, of course there is the “going through”, the passage from a lower level of consciousness to a higher level of consciousness. This is lived out in the physical world: hence my water wall situation.
I use myself as example so that you might reflect on the passages of your own life. We’re never stuck or stagnant, but moving from one place to another. The Soul, our Internal Guidance System, our Godchip, is always reaching for more love, more Life, more freedom, more joy, more expansion which is its nature – to be realized in the physical world. These things are our heart’s desires, of course, which is how we register them with our human mind.
My heart’s desires are…. And when we ask, it is granted, once we clear out the limiting gunk in our human consciousness, that is.
To allow our heart’s desires in is the point of challenge to each of us. This is where human, conditioned mind telsl us these things are not ours. Or we should not reach for so much. Or we don’t deserve these things, or it’s just not possible – “you’re dreamin‘!”
But the heart, the Soul, our Self knows better. It knows that anything is possible and so, we dare to reach. Thus begins the internal work of letting go of that which no longer serves us – the status-quo, the way it is, the way we’ve always done it; the way I have always believed things to be.
Our wee little hand reaches for the unseen and the unknown. We are in free fall. Once you let go from what was, it is a walk of faith in the land of ambiguity. Constantly we are checking back in to see what belief I’m tempted to run back and cling to for safety. ( Could this be where Klingon came from?) Now, I can consciously remind myself to let it go.
The human mind screams out warnings of fear and panic. Don’t do it! Go back! You’ll be ruined!
You’ll die. (The proverbial Rock). While the Godchip is saying, “It’s ok, let go, all is well, TRUST!” ( The proverbial Hardplace).
I am in such a movement. Tired of what was, no longer wanting what I have had, and boldly reaching for a new life in a brand new way. I am…going through.
When I was reading the hexagrams this morning, I understood in one fell swoop why people don’t want to change. It’s is because of this place I am in, the going through. It’s like being in a fun house. Remember that ride at the amusement park.? You’re going through this dark place in a little car, and scary things pop up along the way to terrorize you (human mind), yet you continue on the ride, you continue to go through and eventually you see the light and come out the other side.
It is the going through that people do not want to do.
For me, the discomfort of staying where I was, was greater than the fear of going through. Although yesterday and today I am in pea soup and definitely wondering why I didn’t just stay put. It’s pretty dark and mucky and scary. However, I know there is also a way to go through well.
Hence, I began today with the I Ching for the overview. The day to day, minute by minute what should I “do” questions and answers are more subtle. However, the rules for going through are fairly simple.
First, until you feel ok, well, hopeful…..you must stop. The first thing is to always get yourself feeling better about something. Refocus. Find anything that will make you feel the relief. Once stabilized there, you can look to the situation and find the good things going on in the chaos. Make a list. Feel the support of the diamonds in the pile of crap. How full is the glass, really. Get outrageous in finding the good things. When you’re at a place where you feel better, you can begin to look at what can I literally “do”. Above all, do nothing until you’re feeling better and seeing the good things, the support in the chaos.
Second, only do what feels best. I sometimes think this is the hardest place, because my human mind is screaming about “duty”, “should”, “responsibility”…and often times this is exactly what we are transforming within ourselves, these concepts and how they look in the physical. It’s truly the fun house floor of shifting and dropping and keeping you off balance. What’s real and what’s Real?
I once had a friend who belonged to the Explorer’s Club. These are people who explore the wonders of the world where no one else usually goes: the highest mountain peaks, the poles, the darkest rivers in the deepest jungles.
I believe this journey- the inner journey is the penultimate Explorer’s Club: the conscious and deliberate exploration into higher, purer levels of consciousness. There is no map for this work, but it is elegantly guided and supported by the whole of the Universe courtesy of your own Internal Guidance System.
This, dear people, is the cutting edge of the cutting edge. It is not glamorous and it won”t garner you the limelight.
It is solo, yet you are not alone. It is private, yet all of heaven is rooting for you! It is yours for the asking and the daring to “go through”. You cannot fail. I cannot fail.
Thanks for reading!
Kath
